idk

I honestly don't know what the use of this blog is anymore. I already post most of my media-related rants on my tumblr. I could journal about school on here, but then someone from school might see it. (probably not, this site doesn't promote blogs so it's pretty much unlisted.) who knows. I wanted to write more longform stuff here with other people, but they're all too busy to write anything. I get it. I'm not upset. I probably should have just made a blog of my own from the start. Hell, I'm drowning in homework daily (staying up until 10 every night getting shit done). I just . I don't know, I expected this blog to be more of a benefit but it's just an awkward third space for my thoughts. I wanted to run it with other people to make it less awkward, but the plans for that have fallen through.

I don't know anymore. I don't know if I'll even have time to write anything on here anymore. Get a job, go to college, whatever. I have piles and piles of homework from 2 classes. whatever. I don't want to drop them but holy shit the workload is insane. How am I even going to get a job?

today sucked but I'd rather not expose the personal details. The one thing I can think about was the pre-graduation ceremony. knowing the depressive rut a lot of my friends have fallen into, hearing all this crap about the future just depressed me even further.

made a comic about a conversation I had today (with an extra large side helping of emotional baggage.) if you see this and want me to take it down let me know or whatever. i just thought it was funny.